Last week I was supposed to have dropped off a gift card for teacher appreciation week. Forgot to do it. At least the mom was nice enough to remind me and really understand. I still felt bad. It was that same night, that I realized that I had never sent in the money for the Father/Daughter dance. You know, the dance that my child hasn't wanted to attend for the last few years, but now all of a sudden does. So I emailed again, with apologies again...and got a "Please send the money in tomorrow!" Ok, done.
Today, I was supposed to make macaroni salad for teacher appreciation week. Except I thought it was tomorrow.....not today, and the luncheon is RIGHT NOW. I am the ass of all asses and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it except apologize.
I hate to use Brigitte as my excuse, but sometimes she is all I have. I am trying to manage a busy household of 4 kids....and a husband who doesn't come home much during the week because gas prices are too high and he's exhausted.
I am juggling 2 baseball teams, all-star cheering, private tumbling lessons, therapy sessions, IEP and 504 meetings, doctors appointments, food school, a husband, a dog, etc. There is no time for me....and I don't allow myself to make mistakes. Yet, I have made 3 BIG ONES in the last week all at the expense of the three children who deserve it the least.
Today's post is a total vent. Not looking for sympathy or excuses....just getting it out on paper. Being accountable for it and admitting it. Realizing that I really cannot do it all.
We ALL drop the ball. I've gotten better at letting myself off the hook (and saying no) in the first place. But where that's not possible, it hurts when we make a mistake. Thank you so much for sharing yours--it's great to hear that moms who inspire me are human.
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